Thursday, September 29, 2005
hmm... juz looking through friendster and i saw my "best fren" bday todae... alot of things came into my mind... was like everything going very very fast... so fast tat i from pri to sec den to ite now... so fast tat i missed all my happy moments... coz i had nv tresure them when i was wif them... so sad sia... i wanna contact them leh... but all of us was so busy... tink they dont recongnise me liao... sobx sobx... ytd was talking to my fren and we talking abt the past... abt wat we done during our sch time all tis and tat and i realli miss my fren especially my gd fren... dunno y we now no more frens liao... so sad... dunno y we quarrel... dunno tis and dunno y... aiya so fan... dunno y... i dunno realli dunno... but i realli missed her sia... i wish tat i could still call her and chat... or juz see her de time can sae a hi! i also feel very happy liao... i realli miss the time we do things together... i still keeping her letter tat she gave me when we quarrel last time... i also dunno y i nv throw tat away sia... everytime i see tat letter i drop tears sia... u all will be tinking... wat kind of letter sia... i aslo dunno to other ppl maybe a normal letter but to me it carries all my memories abt me and her... (sound like les sia.. but is true loh) we r like twins sia, more closer den close kins... realli realli miss them... but no face and dont dare to contact them again... X_X heard from my fren abt their whereabout... noe tat they r well and good now... but juz hope me to meet them again... maybe no talking jus see them once more i happy liao... maybe tat is wat frens to me...
i m a bad person... in front of me de... i always take them 4 granted de... but when lost them de time den i realised i should have tresure them well... so! dont be like me k? ur u will regret it like me... =) always learn to tresure the person beside u! dont care is frens family or wat?
11:01 PM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
ytd my mum and i went to a funeral... heard from my mum is her neighbour fren when she was small... at there my mum met all her old frens and neighbours... they all chit chat abt how they lived 4 the past 20 years all tis... how r they now...
i was tinking abt tis... so sad sia... all ppl met onli in someone's funeral... den one of them joked, we will get to meet again if there is another in our group dies... hmm... it reflected in my mind... will i be like tat? wif my neighbours and fren tat we have lost touch? isit mux be one of my fren die den we all tis old frens can meet up?? quite funny actually... they sae they cant find each other 4 meeting up and chats... den i tot... if is like tat den y now they can find each other? hmm... i hope maybe the next 10 or 20 years down the road i dont meet my old fren and neighbours dunring funeral time... quite sad sia...
TIS TELL US SMTHING!!! DONT WAIT TILL U CANT FIND TAT PERSON DEN TRY TO CONTACT THEM... TRY TO KEEP CONTACT AND DONT LOST THEM!!! IT IS A BLESS~~!!!
10:26 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
It start like tis... the lady b4 had an unhappy marriage, the guy nv stead b4... they met in church, start to noe each other and they dated... they were very happy and well together... the guy loved her very very much... he dont mind buying her all the things she like, helping her pay all the household bills... the lady also bought him a new handphone...
After a few months of dating... they decided to get married... the guy wanted to marry her but he dont have much money and the lady knew tat he dont have $$$ and still wanted him to pay 4 all the marrage items without the lady's help to fork out a cent!... at the end becoz of the money matters the guy decided not to get marry...
Although tis problem arised... it nv affect their relationship... they r still so loving... but 1 day, the lady suddenly wanted all his money... the lady was very rich... she sae she wanted to keep 4 him as she scare he will anyhow spend the money... but he sae he wont... he wanted to keep his own $$$ coz is his hard-earned $$$ he wont anyhow give it to other ppl... and becoz of tis they started to fight... the lady ignore him... he was sad...
After a few days, the lady go back to him... they started their happy moments again... he tot everything will be fine again... he was very very happy... BUT! tats not the end! the lady started to ask him 4 $$ first is $50 - $100... the guy tink tat is ok coz guy mux give to his gf... but the lady like drucula each time asking 4 more and more... coz the guy already broke he really have no $$... so he tell the lady the truth and thinking tat as his gf she will understand it...
when the lady heard it... she was soo angry... she broke up wif him... she cut off his handphone's line and take back wat she had given him... the guy was so upset... he keeping tinking abt the lady... he went mad... now in mental hospital...
the story continue till here... juz hope tat nth will happen to the guy... hope tat he will get well, 4get abt tat woman... God will Bless U!
7:34 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
i had a fren can sae we had known quite long... but we nv met b4... can sae is quite funny abt every fornightly we will tend to fight and quarrel... i started to like him although he sae me bad girl all tis... but was fun! tis time we quarrel again... he abt 2 weeks plus nv called me... tat day he started to call me again... i felt smthing was different... coz everything after we fought i will be anxious to hear his voice... i tend to get frustrated abt his voice... when he talked to me i felt like very fan sia... wanted to hang up the phone... i give myself all sorts of reason not to listen to his call... but i still pick up juz hope tat smthing can change... but all i got was disappointment... i m tired... i dont wan to hear his voice... but i still wan tis fren... i dunno wat to do actually... sad sad sobx...
8:31 PM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
wat a sian day... nth to do... waiting 4 time to pass onli... so write blog loh... now so sian and noisy in my house... my fren come my house stay and now she is singing karaoke wif my sis... the voice hmm... mai hiam buai pai... ai hiam KA NA SAI!!! haha.... cannot take it sia... so noisy... now is like my house going to fall... hmm... sian sia! i cant sing coz voice now is like killing chicken... sore thoat sia... sad sad... sobx sobx~~ later going to my ah ma bday celebrations... also very sian... hate to go ah ma house... dont like so much abt them... tink nth to write liao... sian sian sian ar... going mad soon....
1:13 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
All of us noe abt HelloKitty rite??? Jus a little or Big help from u all.... i need webby tat can provide me wif Hello Kitty informations... If u all have, the show the webby or pics all can.... juz send me by my e-mail... soumakito@hotmail.com.. tyty^^ or u can give the webby to me by commending on it.... Thx guys.... ur help is greatly appreicate....
5:40 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
y? y? y like tat? ~>.<~ i dont want it.... so sad... so bad.... i HATE to see tat... bad bad... i hate the show!!! the korean drama series... Stairway to Heaven... bad! yuck!! not nice.... i hate the ending... although the story is very sad... i juz dont like the ending... bad bad!!! i love happily ever after... but the ending is not... in the end... the girl die... sobx sobx... sad sia... hmm... i onli dont like the ending... haha not the story... very sad sia... i cry and cry.... lucky my house not flooded... =P heng! haha... but nice.... all must see tis... nice! but! i still hate the ending hehe... it is showing now... on every MON & TUE 10.30pm... Channel U !!
opa! miniyata! = bro! i m sori!
5:41 PM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Todae i wanna go see jj actually... but i too lazy and tired to go there to wait 4 few hours... i regreted sia... y i nv go... ~>.<~ but! now.... i ok liao... coz raining... ~>.<~ lucky sia.... i nv go.... if not i now become drenched chicken... haha...=P nvm lah.... i got see jj b4 liao... tat time still face to face sia.... no ppl blocking no fans... nth... haha... onli the signature wat.... nvm lah... 4get it... haha... woohoo... now very cold sia... juz come hm... hmm... dunno have i made the wrong choice 4 not to go... nvm! since i choose tis den let it be =)
i happy can liao~~
3:37 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
What thing will make a girl feel Cry...
When a close relative or family members die...
When nth went smoothly...
When her favourite pet die...
When smthing happen to her bf or to someone she love...
When she break wif her bf...
When she quarrel wif her best fren...
When she was scolded by her fren for nth...
When she lost something she realli tresure...
When she felt lost...
When she was rejected by someone she like...
When she heard people sae something bad about her...
When she cant be together wif the person she love...
When she feel very painful...
When she see heard smthing touching...
SO!!! SEE!!!
Girls can cry becoz of soo many reasons...
Guys!! If u can... plz dont let girl cry...
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT IS ALL BECOZ OF U!!!
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU
IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU!!!
7:06 PM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
i draw tis too... But like very blurr... =S i noe is ugly... but nvm... If possible.. give me some commend... k.. thx!!
1:53 PM
I draw 1... Lol.. Dont look like rite?? I also dunno y... haha... my Art~~ Ugly? nvm as i sae! MY Art!!! =)
1:52 PM
A PreFect Guy Is SomeOne WHO...
Knows How 2 Make Love Last.
dO Household Chores.
Can Take Care Of Children.
Go Out 2 Get Groceries.
Massage U When U Need.
Give U Dozens Of Reasons 2 Love Him.
Always There 2 Do Dirty Work.
Never Stop Until Job Is Done.
Never Mind Getting Down And Dirty.
9:21 AM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
A YEAR AGO today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him.
"Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"
He raised his eyebrow.
"Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone."
"Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his
tone.
"I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."
"E-card??"
That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is.
"You have to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and ran
to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any
romantic words, I still looked forward to the card.
"I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!"
As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and got online.
Staring at the empty inbox, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no
one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our
homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with
each other all day long. We were only neighbors. At that time, I hated my
parents for making us live next to him.
At that time, I had a crush on a senior. After a while, I found out that the
senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently
passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms.
"I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me.
I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different
way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he
started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster
when he was near.
We both knew: we fell in love with each other.
Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we would
not be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared
about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.
Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We
didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with
a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door
and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then
on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his
request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. On the
surface, we may have left each other. But in reality, we were still
together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more
dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my
hints.
Still facing the empty inbox, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it
and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I
called his cell phone.
"Hello." He picked up the phone.
"I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure.
"You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy.
"But I sent it." He was really busy but I didn't care.
"I didn't receive it. Send it again."
"Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with
impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to
each other?
"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight.
I'll eat dinner by myself."
"Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy."
"I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.
Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many
years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any
flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too
much to ask for?? I unplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell
phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations.
After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to
forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work. Because there
were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about
our argument.
"Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."
As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded
outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly
wheeled in a gurney.
"What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic.
Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was
covered with blood.
"Car accident." The medic replied.
"Very serious. He may die." I nodded and ran to the operating room with
them.
When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped
breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped.
"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses.
Saving people is our duty. We can't and shouldn't lose our calm.
But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person
was my BOYFRIEND!
"NO..." I stood in shock.
"NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body.
His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find
another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.
I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even
though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I
still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw
away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my
strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even
say "It hurts". He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with
his silence.
Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly
anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my
mouth.
"It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me
on the shoulder.
They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them.
"He can't die." I shook my head.
"He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him.
"Dr. SHU, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me.
"I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."
"Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian
understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a
habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card.
"I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to
knock the life back into his body.
"Take her away!"
That day, I lost my control and my professionalism. And that day happened to
be Valentine's Day.
Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day. They
told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times
but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got
hit by a large truck on the way.
When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an
unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish. Like
an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore.
After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot
or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.
I turned on computer after a year later, even though I know no one will send
me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.
GOSH....I have.... 100 emails! Who would be bored enough to send me 100
junk mail? I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail,
and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until
today. We apologize for the delay."
The sender was my BOYFRIEND!!! I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send
date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he
have sent these? With a trembling hand, I opened the mail.
The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green
leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play...."Only Love". I couldn't
believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy.
I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words
underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem.
"Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last.
You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung.
And I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,
and how you gave that love to me...."
The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my
world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight
with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and
coldness that will never go away. When I read these words, my tears
unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard. I replied 100 times, and "Only
Love" played 100 times.
In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for LAST ONE
YEAR finally got RECONNECTED.
Moral of the story :
====================
Try to express out your feeling towards each other so that both know what u
are thinking!! ;)
7:30 PM
This is a love letter from a boy to a girl.... However, the girl's
father does not like him and want them to stop their
relationship...... and so.. The boy wrote this letter to the girl..
he knows that the girl's father will definitely read this letter..
1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself.
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help me.
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this is the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."
So bad!! However, before handing over the letter to the girl, the boy told the girl to "READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning-only to read
1.3.5.7.9.11.13 (Odd No.'s) go read it once again but the Odd Number lines..
7:20 PM
Be Happy Today
Dance Like No One's Watching
By: Crystal Boyd
We convince ourselves that life will be better after
we get married, have a baby, then another.
Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough
and we'll be more content when they are.
After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to
deal with.
We will certainly be happy when they are out of that
stage.
We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our
spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer
car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire.
The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now.
If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges.
It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be
happy anyway.
Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have
and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special,
special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time
waits for no one.
So, stop waiting
--until your car or home is paid off
--until you get a new car or home
--until your kids leave the house
--until you go back to school
--until you lose ten pounds
--until you gain ten pounds
--until you finish school
--until you get a divorce
--until you get married
--until you have kids
--until you retire
--until summer
--until spring
--until winter
--until fall
--until you die
There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So -- work like you don't need money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching.
7:15 PM
Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.
7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!
15. Spend every second possible together.
16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.
19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.
20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to each other.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
26. Dance together.
27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.
28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with his/her friends.
38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.
42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.
50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."
7:11 PM
Wah!!! So fast sia... 7th month pass liao... Isit a good thing or bad?? I also dunno leh... Coz during tis time... i quarrel wif my fren... not we nv contact each other liao... sad sia... ~>.<~ Good thing is 7th pass liao... no need to scare at night... haha... i m a timid one =p always having a WILD imagination... haha... I dont wish 4 anything... juz wan the bad things will pass like the month... good things will stay! Hope so... coz i m the suai suai one...
nvm lah... No matter wat comes... juz be strong!!
as the M1 song... 'Always look on the bright side of life!'
6:33 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
7:17 PM
Juz finish talking to a fren... Nice fren... He was sad... i tell him to talk to me when he can... and 4get his past wif her... We talk abt last time, so bad tat i rejected him... =p but realli no feelings... But as we juz now talk abt past present and future... I felt little being loved... And when he said abt the girl or others, i felt bit sad and jealous... Is tis being loved?? Mybe i started to love him... i dunno also... feeling is gd but i scare... i scare being rejected... scare tat u find other girls and wont talk to me anymore... mixed feeling... Should i take back my love and showed him care juz as a fren or should i continue to love u?? If my love make u scare and run away... den i rather u dont see tis!! and we at least can be fren...
So sori... i dont dare to tell u... but i m hoping if u and me r fated... u will see my blog and tell me... no matter is fren or love... juz drop me a commend... i hope tat we r fated but the feeling in me gave me an opposite answer...
nvm... If u dont love me... i love u can already... love need not be reciprocal... U happy means tat i m happy too...
6:35 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Isnt tat sweet~~
5:23 PM
It is ARTS~~
5:20 PM
Todae is Teacher's Day... Its a holiday... but too boring... coz nth to do... Ytd is the celebration... I nv go sch... hehe den i accompany my fren go her sch see her teachers... also dunno y i did tat... nth to do... haha... i nv go back to my former sch to see my teachers... also dunno y... maybe scare ba... not a gd student =p ...
seeing my fren hug hug their teachers talk talk abt their past and how they r doing now... felt very happy and sad... tinking tat if i go back wat will my teachers sae abt me?? I dont dare to tink and wont wan to go back... Maybe if 1 day i got the sudden urge... i may... =)
3:00 PM
